I could not wait to get out of home. I had a mother who was always the center of attention. No matter what I did, she could do it better. She was a class act, and everyone watched her. She was the show pony and there was no room for me or anyone else. I thought that was how I was supposed to act. Until in high school, the kids there let me know that was not acceptable. My confidence was shattered and I became a recluse. I would spend most lunch time, in the library, reading. I believed that I was thoroughly unlovable and that I was unworthy. Years later, I came across an article on the narcissistic personality – and I was reading about her. That was when a light went on for me. I realized I had some negative beliefs that I wanted to sort out. I took up journal writing. Suddenly, I had a way to understand what had happened to me. Better still, I had a way to fix the problem. If only I had known in my school years what I know now. I tend to write last thing at night. It helps me download my day, so I can sleep at night. I have noticed that I don’t get nearly as many nightmares as I used to.